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11. Even today's beautiful weather hasn't been enough to lift my spirits :/


I wish I knew what I could do to make myself feel less :/ 
Pretty much the only thing that's been working is to distract myself as much as possible...but that only works for a short time. Maybe I'm just supposed to feel this way for a while. Maybe I'm actually supposed to do something about it. Maybe I'm not supposed to think about it and just keep going. Maybe I'm being overdramatic. 
Sometimes I feel so far from how I used to be...and I realize I use the same phrases really often, but that's all I can do to describe how I feel...

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